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Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Another Tarot Reading

A month ago, I had my first Tarot reading... (see related post here)

Earlier today, I had another reading. This time, it's from a long lost friend... Like the previous one, this reading involves another 3 cards...

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Context (left) - This card reflects the general over view of your present situation.

Focus (middle) - This card reflects a new set of circumstances that are about to or just have presented themselves to you. This is your central issue at this time.

Outcome (right) - This card reflects the outcome of the Focus Card. The results of your problems solving/decision making.

Context - The Hermit
The faint light from the Hermit's lamp can easily be lost in the darkness unless you quiet yourself and seek it out. You need patience at this point in your life, in order to recognize your personal limitations. Take a break and take stock of the situation from the sidelines. This can be a time to finally reap the rewards from your work, or just a chance to catch your breath. Have some patience, and when you see the Hermit's light, you will know it is time to move forward again.

Focus - Ace of Pentacles
Business and finance are in the forefront with the Ace of Pentacles, and something unexpected is on its way. Business opportunities, gifts or some other form of material abundance is about to present itself. This gift will only be the start of something larger, so make sure to keep your eye on the bigger picture. Money can not buy happiness, but right now it just might put a smile on your face.

Outcome - The Chariot
Ambition can be the driving force behind any journey, but can also be your downfall. You can't let your ambitions blind you to what is right in front of you. When this card appears, you need to temper your enthusiasm or else your aggression to succeed will ultimately lead to failure. Channel your energy positively and make your choices with a cool head. Like the chariot driver must control his horses, you also have to rein in your own passions. A strong will can easily get out of hand.

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Like the previous one, this reflects my current path. I am now threading a path towards an ambition - a future that I envisioned myself in. Hopefully, I can pass this road unscathed.

Monday, July 27, 2009

My Cravings

Last week was a busy one for me. As such, I turned to food for comfort. :)

Monday, I started by craving for garlic bread... I don't know why but I kinda missed the smell and taste of garlic in my mouth.

Last Tuesday, my mom bought muffins... Though I was not that hungry that time, I ate 3. I even asked for muffins the next day.. :D

Come Wednesday, I was indulging myself with buko juice... Grated coconut meat with it's juice and water plus milk... Yummy! *lol*

Thursday night, I asked my sister for some bread and Chicken sandwich.. And then Coke (Coca-cola, not cocaine)... I had 2 big servings of Chicken sandwich and 500ml Coke. *he he*

Come Friday, I was craving for Calamares... but since it's Friday, I was told not to have any meat (even though it's not the Lenten season!)... I replaced the craving for calamares with 2 bags of chips and a whole tub of dip...

Saturday, I had kwek-kwek - hard-boiled quail eggs coated in flour and then Iced Tea. The next day, my mom asked her aunt to cook biko for us... Apparently, my youngest sister was craving for one. :)

Today, I finally fulfilled another craving... I've had Calamares and kwek-kwek... And then black gulaman. *yum.. yum..*

I felt relieved and happy... My cravings always make me feel so good... I think this is one of the reason why I'm gaining a lot of weight - uncontrollable cravings for unhealthy food.

Right now, I'm actually craving for a whole platter of lasagna... I wonder who can buy one for me? *lol*

Last Week

I've been busy last week in my training for bar tending. We've had our competition last week and our goal was to make 20 mixes in 15 minutes. Since I'm in no mood to memorize a lot of mixes, I was just able to make 15 mixes. Not bad since most of the mixed drinks I made requires shaking them...

Aside from that bar tending thingy, I decided to read all top ten entries in Chico Garcia's blog site. I'm a fan of RX 93.1 and Chico and Delle so I always make it a point to listen every morning from 6:00-10:00 AM, Monday til Friday (before it's 6:00-9:00AM, Monday til Saturday). If I'm not mistaken, the last entries I've read was mid-May... so there's quite a lot of blogs/top ten entries to read. I finally finished them last Saturday.

Then, I decided to review. I have already started making a reviewer but the lure of television and internet made me stop from doing one. I ended up covering only half of what I should read/review for our exam today. The result? Blank answers and most of my answers were mere guesses. *lol*

There's still two more exams before our graduation in Hotel and Restaurant Services. So I have to do good on the remaining exams to redeem myself.. he he

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Life Outside Maersk

This post is in response to Mish's message in my cbox...

This week is the start of my official non-working week. My resignation was effective July 15 but I had to go back to finish my clearance...

Initially, I planned to go on vacation this week. But last Saturday, I had a changed of heart. Actually, I have been changing some of my plans and recently acted impulsively.

This week, I'm busy with my class. The last day of training will be on August 21 and graduation will be on August 25. I'm enjoying the training especially now that we're mixing spirits, etc.

As of now, I still don't have any idea where to work or whether I want to be in an office again. All I know for now is that I'm happily threading this new path. I am enjoying myself. :)

Oh, I miss my friends at Maersk... Anyway, I'll see them when it's time.. :)

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

My Guardian Angel...

Ariel

Ariel means "lion of God" and is often associated with lions. When Ariel is near you, you may begin seeing references to or visions of lions around you. Ariel is also associated with the wind. Ariel works closely in conducting manifestation, spirit releasement and Divine magic. Ariel also oversees the sprites, the nature Angels associated with water. Ariel is involved with healing and protecting nature, including animals, fish and birds. If you find an injured bird or other wild animal that needs healing, call upon Ariel for help. Ariel also works closely with Raphael to heal animals in need. Archangel Ariel is known as the Angel of Healing and New Beginnings. Ariel shows you how to feel and see the energy of life. Makes you more sensitive for unseen, nature spirists, elves, laws of nature. He brings to you the message that you have to learn to let things go when they are not working good for you anymore. Destruction of things that are toxic and overwhelmig for you. End is a natural thing, every end is a new beginning. Nothing new cannot start without letting the old go. Its The Wind of Change.

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He's the result when I took one quiz... Well, I kinda thought my guardian angel was Uriel... :D

Sunday, July 19, 2009

My List

Now that I've resigned, I'm going to do the stuffs on my list... One by one..

  1. Resume blogging.. Be active again.
  2. Take up Bartending
  3. Work in a bar or hotel
  4. Make portraits again
  5. Do tribal shirt designs
  6. Get another tattoo
As of now, I'm done with the first one... and I'm currently doing my second one... The third will follow after graduation.

As for the bottom three, once I get the design I want for my backpiece, I'll have another tattoo... D*mn! I'm really excited! *lol*

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Sober...

Had a few drinks this afternoon. My classmates from bartending went here so we could practice mixing some drinks in preparation for an upcoming competition.

In less than 5 minutes, my chosen two was able to make 10mixes... I hope they can do that next week.

Even if we don't win that competition, as long we're not in last place, is already enough for me.

note:
I just had some Cuba Libre, Vodka Gimlet, Gin Tonic... and then Gran Matador.. lol...
I miss drinking! :D

Friday, July 17, 2009

Ho-Hum 2!

Silence isn't the absence of sound. It's the absence of reason and understanding when things get rough.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Thoughts at My Previous Work

I'm the type who loves to scribble/type whatever it is that's inside my head. Everywhere I go, I always have a small notebook and pen so I can write each idea that will pop.

I'll put 3 compositions, more of thoughts, that I typed while I was still working at Maersk. The following were written in Filipino, my native tongue.. :)



- 2008 March 31 -

Nagsasawa na ako sa buhay ko. Wala na kasing bago. Parang lahat na lang ng gawin ko, kulang.. Kung hindi naman, wala akong ginawang tama.

Makailang beses ko na bang tinangkang kitlin itong buhay ko? Pinigilan kong humiya, naglaslas ng pulso... Pati nga ang pekein ang isang aksidente sa motorsiklo, ginawa ko na. Lahat para lang wakasan lahat ng nararamdaman kong sakit, hirap... at higit sa lahat, kabiguan.

Duwag kasi ako. Takot ako sa lahat ng bagay na nakapagdudulot ng sakit. Duwag akong madapa ulit. Nagtatapang-tapangan lang ako para hindi nila ako masaktan. Nagsusuot ng maskara para walang makakita ng mga kahinaan ko...

Kagabi, muli kong pinangarap kung paano ang magiging wakas. Kahit sa magiging huling araw ko, may pangarap ako. Mababaw lang naman ang mga 'yun. Pero pangarap ko talaga na: makakain ng relyenong bangus mula umaga hanggang gabi, magpunta sa park para manood lang ng mga tao, tumakbo hanggang sa bumagsak na lang sa pagod... at higit sa lahat, ang hindi na muling magising pa galing sa pagtulog.

Oo, larawan ako ng isang tao na duwang at sawang-sawa na sa buhay. Patapon na ako kaya anuman ang gawin ko ay wala ng magbabago.

- 2008 April 19 -

Mahigit isang buwan na pala. Matagal na pala kaming hindi nag-uusap ng mga magulang ko. Anong masasabi ko? Masaya pala 'yon... Masaya dahil walang nakikialam sa'yo. Walang nagagalit. Kahit sa tingin ng iba, masama ang tikisin ang sariling magulang, mas gusto ko na ito kaysa lagi na lang masisi sa mga kasalanang 'di ko naman ginawa.

Sawa na kasi akong masisi. Sawa na akong marining kung paano akong nabuo, kung paano naging sila. Nakaririndi na kasi ang ganung mga pangungusap. May hangganan ang kaya kong intindihin...

Kaya ngayon, hirap ako. Hirap akong matulog. Hirap akong pagkasyahin 'yung sweldo ko. Hindi naman kasi pwedeng basta na lang kumuha ako sa nakatago. Mahirap ipaliwanag iyon eh.

Paano mo ipapaliwanang yung sa ibang paraan mo nakuha?

Kaya heto ako ngayon, nagpupumilit magpakasimple kahit nasanay sa maluhong pamumuhay. Sa dinami-dami ng luho ko, iilan na lang ang natitira... Ang sakit sa ulo. Higit sa lahat, ang hirap tanggapin...

- 2009 January 8 -

Bagong taon, bagong buhay. Bagong grupo, bagong mga kasama... Dapat masaya. Dapat walang mga pinagsisisihan. Kung ano ako ngayon ay epekto o resulta ng mga naging desisyon dati.

May mga plano ako ngayong taon. Mga planong 'di ko alam kung matutupad ko. Kasi ba naman, pinangungunahan ng kung anu-anong takot at kaba. Pwede kayang isantabi muna ang mga takot at harapin ng may lakas kung ano man ang parating?

Mas makabubuti kayang biglain ang pagkakataon para walang oras ng masayang sa pag-iisip? Napapansin ko kasing mas madalas na puro isip lang bago iyong mismong gawa. Kaya ang resulta? Wala... Sa kaiisip kasi nauubos ang oras ko eh!



There... 3 different dates... different thoughts, different rattles and rambles...

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

I'm Happy...

I'm finally done with my clearance... *cheers!*
So now, it's gonna be training for me... Nice!

I will miss my Maersk colleagues and friends.
I will miss my batchmates.
I will miss my former managers.

But then...

I'm excited.
I'm looking forward to my future.
I'm finally doing the things in my list!

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

D*mn!

Yes, I still need to go back tomorrow..
3 more signatures for my clearance (a different one!).

I'm so hating the process...

Good thing, one of my former colleague invited me to drink...

Thanks to Red Horse, though today's a d*mned day, I still feel good...

And tomorrow, it's another d*amn day!

Monday, July 13, 2009

Screwed!

Ever had that feeling that nothing's going right and it's gonna be a very bad day? Well, though I'm happy 'coz of my forthcoming freedom, I felt so bad today.

I'm supposed to process my clearance from work today, but then 2 of my signatories were absent from work. Damn!

So tomorrow, I still have to go back to work... Just when I thought I am almost free to go...

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Ho-Hum!

I still have 2 more days...

My resignation from Maersk is effective July 15. Since I've already used all my Vacation Leave credits, I still have to report for work from July 13 to 14.

Actually, I don't want to go there anymore. I already find it too tiring to wake up early, go to school and then to work... Besides, there's nothing much to be done. I just need to ask 4-5 persons to have my clearance cleared.

As I'm slowly counting the days, I can't help but to feel both excitement and regret... Excitement 'coz I will now be able to focus more on my training.. Regret 'coz I won't be seeing some friends anymore.

I resigned to achieve my personal growth. But in going after that, I will be letting go of my work and leave some friends behind. :(

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

The 8th Day

It's the 8th day of the month.. As usual, my mom asked her aunt to cook some pancit and biko... See, my youngest sister (only 4 y/o) was born on the 8th day of February. Every month, we make it a point to cook something for her... a sort of offering 'coz if we don't she gets sick... and each one of us will follow suit.

Since it's the 8th of the month, I remembered what happened almost 5 years ago. My mom asked me to buy her a pregnancy kit. Imagine my dilemma 'coz that time, I was acting like a guy. I was like: "There's no way I'm gonna buy that!". However, since I'm the eldest, I ended up still buying one for her.

Wearing an oversized shirtm, maong shorts and a baseball cap, I went to this small pharmacy. Inside, I whispered to the pharmacist/sales lady that I'm looking for pregnancy kit. I was so humiliated when she shouted at the her colleague, from the far end of the store, that I was buying a blue pregnancy kit! I hurriedly went home when she gave me one because I could hear some people whispering: "Tingnan mo yun, pa-tomboy tomboy pa kuno, malandi naman pala..."

When I got home, I narrated to my mom everything that happened inside that store. I swear, she was laughing so hard at me... Instead of showing how angry I was because of that incident, I immediately asked her to try the kit and see if she's really pregnant.

To cut the story short, my mom was 2 months pregnant that time. So I was always accompanying her to each of her monthly check ups. Aside from that, I was excited to have a baby sister or brother para maging kakampi ko.. *hehe*

8th of February 2005, a few weeks after my work started, my mom gave birth to a healthy baby girl who weighs 8.5lbs... We planned to video the whole giving birth thingy but my dad was against it. The next day, I went to the hospital after work and bought a cake to celebrate with my family. That night, all of us stayed in the hospital, each trying to carry the baby whenever she's taken out of the nursery room.

Now, my baby sister is already 4 years old. Stubborn like her older siblings but looks a lot like our dad. Right now, we're actually calling her JR (short for junior) because one of her name is the feminine form of my dad's name.. *hehe*

Monday, July 6, 2009

Unexpected Visitor

I got an email from "Mitch" of Hisunglasses.com.. Since I personally don't know the sender and the site, I visited it.

I think it's an e-commerce site for sunglasses. Personally, I'm not fond of wearing one because of my poor eyesight. I'm wearing eyeglasses all the time (that's because my soft contact lenses already expired and I haven't had the time to buy another one).

Back to the site, it's all about sunglasses. Brands/collections were cataloged and the site shows a photo of each. I happen to get across one pair that I like.. It's Diesel Sunglasses 0006 S.. I love the color.

I don't know if I'll get one though. Aside from poor eyesight, my facial feature (read: my nose and oriental eyes) makes it difficult for me to get an eyewear I like and fits me perfectly.

If you're into sunglasses and collects different brands/models, you may want to check this site: http://www.hisunglasses.com

Sunday, July 5, 2009

To Tweak or Not to Tweak

I wanted to modify my page.. add a few more widget and modify my labels. However I am already tired and I still have a lot of things to do.

I haven't started yet on my blog about books... Hopefully, I can start doing it next week. As of now, I'm undecided...

Will I modify and add some widgets? Or should I leave this as is?

Bilin

Spoiled ako at aminado ako dun. Dahil nga sa nasanay akong nakukuha lahat ng gusto ko, at kumilos ng wala sa edad ko, madalas akong pagbilinan ng kung anu-ano... Sa dinami-dami ng mga bilin na yun, ang mga sumusunod lang ang nag-iwan ng mga marka para sa akin:
  1. "Things will be better in the morning" - Masarap isipin to lalo na kung problemado ka.. Sa gulo ng mundo ko, madalas akong sabihan ng ganito ng mga tropa ko. Pero di ko ito makakalimutan hindi dahil madalas itong sabihin sa akin. Madalas kong maalala ito dahil ito ang huling salita ni Mikail bago siya umalis..
  2. "Walang pipigil sa'yong umiyak. Gawin mo kung sa tingin mo'y makabubuti ito sa'yo" - Hangga't maaari, ayokong ipakita ang kahinaan ko. Sa sandaling mapuno ako ay daig ko pa ang isang erupting volcano (I scream, I shout, I punch walls)... Simula nung natuto akong umiyak tuwing gabi (sa sulok ng aking kwarto), mas magaan ang pasok ng umaga.. parang bawat patak ng luha ay inilalabas ang anumang problema ko sa gabing yun...
  3. "Kapag di ka na masaya sa isang bagay, pakawalan mo na. Kapag pinilit mo pang hawakan yan, ikaw lang ang masasaktan at mahihirapan" - Dahil dito, sa sandaling maramdaman ko ang lungkot/galit para sa isang tao, lugar o pangyayari, iniiwasan ko ito. Hindi dahil duwag akong harapin sila ha.. Di ko lang makita ang sense ng pag-stay sa isang bagay na di naman nakapagdudulot ng saya..
  4. "One Satanic Rule: Don't open your mouth when you have nothing good to say" - Ayan, eto ang isa sa pinakamahirap na sundin.. Lalo pa nga't malakas akong mambasag, mangantyaw or manlait.. *hehe* Kahit sabihing Satanic Rule siya, may bahid naman ng katotohanan ang pahiwatig nya.
Ayan, ilan lamang yan sa mga laging ipinagbibilin sa akin... Tipong araw-araw, merong isa jan na laman ng text message sa akin.. Nakakatawa pero I'm starting to love 'em. Everyday guide na yung mga bilin na yan e.. *lol*

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

This Day's Rants...

- I'm still a little dizzy tonight. Will I be able to have some good sleep? Or will I be awake 'til tomorrow morning?

- F***! I'm still in the second chapter of the book I'm currently reading. I always get sleepy reading Umberto Eco's Foucault's Pendulum. Will I be able to finish it this month?

- I'm craving for a super cold soft drinks... I ended up drinking just plain old iced tea 'coz of hyper acidity *as if Iced Tea isn't acidic at all!*.

- I'm frustrated tonight. A promise was not fulfilled... I was actually looking forward to that promise. *Damn!*

- I'm sick and frustrated. If only cursing can take away all these negative feelings...
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