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Ang Bagyo

Nag-post ako ng experiences namin about sa huling bagyong dumating..

Sana di kayo kasama sa mga nasalanta.

Paki-basa na lang Ang Bagyo.

Salamat!! :D

Dreams and Inner Wishes

I've set up a deadline for the month of September. I'm actually reluctant to set one. Especially because it's about a part of me that I've kept underneath.

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Was it just a dream meant to remind me of my deadline? Or was it a dream that was supposed to show my innermost desires?

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Full post here.

http://fierywaters.webs.com/apps/blog/show/1818023-dreams-and-inner-wishes

Of L and H

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I've been fighting a war that's been inside me for years. I learned to be a cynic. A thinker. Cold. Hard. A thinking machine.

I'm just afraid. I'm just using my brain. Cons weighed heavier than the pros. And if I have to write them all down, he can't still understand.

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Read the whole post here.


...raye-emo-mode...

Of Destiny and Choices

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Do you think we're all destined to do something?

Read my full post at: http://fierywaters.webs.com/apps/blog/show/1794329-of-destiny-and-choices

Com Cycle

Do you love to talk?
Are you good at it?

Do you listen to the one talking?
Or do you just shrug it off?

Read my latest post about a particular communication cycle..

New..

Are you the type who prepares? Or do you always find yourself cramming to meet a deadline?
Just recently, I posted about a deadline I've set for myself.
Read my deadline.

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Do you have a friend who can tell you things honestly, even if it's going to hurt you?
Well, I have a friend like that. And he can really make me tick.
Earlier, we talked for more than an hour when he said something that made me think, in relation to my deadline.
So now, I'm still thinking about what he said. TG I have a friend like him!
A brutally honest guy who can say things that I've been ignoring. Read it here.

I Hate Mondays!

I hate Mondays. It used to be "I hate Tuesdays!" coz of the reports at work.

But right now, I am hating monday.

Why? Read it here.

an update...

finished my own site at webs.com...
i'm also done with the site for my OJT.

next thing on the list? relearn scripts.. etc.

oh, and for the month of september, i'm giving myself freedom...

freedom to fall, feeling with my heart, and not reasoning with my mind.
if this month ends without me falling, then falling is definitely off my list this year.

it has to wait until 2010. ayt?

Takot Ako

May kinakatakutan pa rin talaga ako. Akala ko, unti-unti kong mahaharap lahat ng takot ko. Hindi pala. Hindi pala lahat ng takot ay dapat harapin. May ibang kailangang ipagpaliban muna.

Takot ako sa pusa. Dati, makarinig lang ako ng "meow" nito, natitigilan ako. Kapag may dumaan sa harapan ko, napapahinto ako. Hanggang ngayon, ganun pa rin. Pero ngayon, kaya ko ng dumiretso kapag nakakita ako nito. Naaalis ko na ba ang mga takot ko sa pusa? Pwedeng oo, pwedeng hindi. Siguro, ayos lang sa akin ang makita o makarinig ng huni niya. Wag lang siyang lalapit, ibang usapan na yun.

Takot din pala ako sa dugo. Hematophobic ako. Ito ang rason bakit hindi ako sa larangan ng medisina kahit gusto ko yun. Makakita lang ako ng dugo, hinihimatay ako... Kahit nga nung naglaslas ako, mainit sa pakiramdam ang paglabas niya sa aking katawan... pero nung nakita ko na ang dugo ko sa sahig, hinimatay ako. Huling pagtatangka, pasko ng taong 2002...

At ang isa sa nakapagdudulot sa akin ng matinding takot? Hindi hayop, bagay, o pangyayari. Sa katunayan, muli akong sinasaniban ng takot. Bumalik kasi siya. Siya na ilang beses ko nang iniwasan at tinaguan. Muling nauulit ang siklo naming dalawa.

Kung hanggang kailan itong takot ko, wala akong ideya. Ayoko siyang harapin. Masyadong masakit at nakakatakot ang mga nagawa niya dati sa akin.

Kung bakit pa kasi nangyari yun, di sana, kaibigan ko pa rin siya hanggang ngayon. Di sana ako tulad sa isang daga na kung saan-saang lungga pumapasok.

Mga Saloobin...

Kapag pinakawalan, di na babalikan. Tingin ko kasi, kung aayos naman lahat, bakit kailangang pakawalan pa, di ba?

Di lahat ng nakikilala mo, mananatili sa tabi mo. May iba kasing dumadating lang para turuan ka at bigyan ng leksiyon... Kaya parang ang hirap mahulog e. Baka kasi mahulog ka sa isang taong dumaan lang pala.

Ang hirap palang pigilan kung sino ka talaga. Ilang maskara man ang suot mo, may mga taong makikita kung anong ikinukubli nun.

*Sana bago nila ako hinusgahan at sinabihan ng kung anu-ano, sinubukan nila akong kausapin at kilalanin... Sana bago ko siya pinili, inalam ko muna lahat. *

Some More Thoughts...

There's no such thing as gray area. It's either black or white.

Is the person you're with meant to stay with you? Or he's just supposed to teach you?

When in love, is it: More heart, less thinking?
Or was it: More thinking, less feeling?