Deja Vu

I don’t know if it’s a part of my gift. I often have dreams that come true. Literally. For someone who thinks each dream has both a literal and symbolic meaning, deja vu still remains to be a mystery for me.

A few years ago, I get to dream of discussing some event proposal. It’s choosing which supplier we should choose for an exhibit. I was discussing it with people I don’t know. That time, my work is all about documentation. So I shrugged off that dream.

Last month, while busily rendering hours for my OJT, my dream came true. We were discussing about our upcoming exhibit and were gathering proposals for booths, carpets, etc. The conversation, the actions – it’s all what I dreamed of years ago.

I’ve experienced a lot of déjà vu already. Up to now, I’m still figuring out if it is déjà vu per se or was it because of my gift? Whatever it is, I just hope that one particular would never happen in real life.

A Dream

I saw him in my slumber. I could see his lips move but can’t hear what he’s saying. He’s trying to tell me something. Only I couldn’t seem to understand. I’ve become deaf to his pleas.

When he finished, he turned his back and started to walk away. I could see myself running after him but the distance’s still the same. I can’t catch up. I fainted in the dream. When I regained consciousness, I saw doors, a lot of them.

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Fantasy and/or Reality

Do you believe in fantasies?
Or do you only believe in what's real?

Do you think fantasies destroy one's reality?
Or does it give a different touch to the world we live in?

Read my latest post about reality and fantasy.
Click here.

Reasons for Marrying

I'm not yet married.. but two of my friends are soon to be husbands.
I don't think they should marry yet.

Read the reason why and my thoughts about their reasons for marrying here.

If the Shoe Fits

I hoped to be just like her:
She can make you smile.
She's on top of your list.

I wished to be her:
Whenever you look at her in the eye
And everytime you hold her hand.

...

For you, I can only take her place
If the shoe fits.

read my full post here.

Alak at Love

Nakakalasing pala 'yung pag-ibig no? Yung alak kapag wala, parang gustong-gusto mong sumayad sa lalamunan mo. Yung love pag wala, parang gusto mong ma-in love.

Pag may alak naman... (basahin ang kabuuan dito.)

At Lost

Everyone experienced reaching a crossroad.
It's at this point where we can't seem to decide which one to take.

I'm currently at lost and have posted a blog about it.
Read my post here.

New Home..

Sorry if I keep redirecting everyone to my new home. By the end of October, I will stop posting blogs here.

Anyway, I have new posts. Pls visit my new home to read them.

1. Beautiful Alone - thoughts, rants, raves
2. Cafe Pucci - coffee mix
3. Cafe Royal Frappe - coffee mix

Dreams and Inner Wishes

I've set up a deadline for the month of September. I'm actually reluctant to set one. Especially because it's about a part of me that I've kept underneath.

...

Was it just a dream meant to remind me of my deadline? Or was it a dream that was supposed to show my innermost desires?

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Full post here.

http://fierywaters.webs.com/apps/blog/show/1818023-dreams-and-inner-wishes

New..

Are you the type who prepares? Or do you always find yourself cramming to meet a deadline?
Just recently, I posted about a deadline I've set for myself.
Read my deadline.

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Do you have a friend who can tell you things honestly, even if it's going to hurt you?
Well, I have a friend like that. And he can really make me tick.
Earlier, we talked for more than an hour when he said something that made me think, in relation to my deadline.
So now, I'm still thinking about what he said. TG I have a friend like him!
A brutally honest guy who can say things that I've been ignoring. Read it here.

an update...

finished my own site at webs.com...
i'm also done with the site for my OJT.

next thing on the list? relearn scripts.. etc.

oh, and for the month of september, i'm giving myself freedom...

freedom to fall, feeling with my heart, and not reasoning with my mind.
if this month ends without me falling, then falling is definitely off my list this year.

it has to wait until 2010. ayt?

Mga Saloobin...

Kapag pinakawalan, di na babalikan. Tingin ko kasi, kung aayos naman lahat, bakit kailangang pakawalan pa, di ba?

Di lahat ng nakikilala mo, mananatili sa tabi mo. May iba kasing dumadating lang para turuan ka at bigyan ng leksiyon... Kaya parang ang hirap mahulog e. Baka kasi mahulog ka sa isang taong dumaan lang pala.

Ang hirap palang pigilan kung sino ka talaga. Ilang maskara man ang suot mo, may mga taong makikita kung anong ikinukubli nun.

*Sana bago nila ako hinusgahan at sinabihan ng kung anu-ano, sinubukan nila akong kausapin at kilalanin... Sana bago ko siya pinili, inalam ko muna lahat. *

Some More Thoughts...

There's no such thing as gray area. It's either black or white.

Is the person you're with meant to stay with you? Or he's just supposed to teach you?

When in love, is it: More heart, less thinking?
Or was it: More thinking, less feeling?

My Karma

I chose to leave him. Reasons ruled over feelings.

Call my reasoning twisted. But the minute I learned the truth about him made me instantly think of my friends... and the other people that might benefit from me leaving him.

It was a hard decision. It took a lot of courage. And it was hard to fight back the emotions that's building up inside. I had to restrain myself from reaching out to him and tell him what I really feel about him.

He's my karma. The one I chose to love and leave behind... 'coz reasons weighed heavier than feelings.

Kung Hindi Pa...

kung di pa ako nasubsob, di ko magagawang maglakad ng marahan. di pala lahat ng bagay nadadaan sa mabilisan. may mga bagay palang dapat hinay-hinay lang.

kung di pa ako nauntog, di ko maiisip na unti-unti ko palang sinasayang buhay ko. alak, yosi, gimik... parang walang bukas. di pala dapat ganun.

panghuli, kung di ka pa dumating, malamang, hedonist pa rin ako... overusing my freedom and seizing each day as if there's no tomorrow.

salamat sa pagpatid at pag-untog sa akin. ikaw ang karma ko. karmang di pwedeng talikuran.

bakit pa? eh i'm hooked na.

Keep Your Distance!

Last night, I was searching for random words at google. It has been a habit to check on some words, their history, meaning, etc. Words like hugging, people, personal space and bubble were just some of the things I typed at google.com's seach box. Then I came across this word: PROXEMICS.

According to one entry, Proxemics was introduced by one anthropologist, Edward T. Hall. It refers to the measurable distance between two interacting people. There are 4 delineations for same. They are:

1. Intimate Distance - close phase at less than 6 inches, far phase is from 6 to 18 inches
   
2. Personal Distance - close phase at 1.5 to 2.5 feet, far phase is at 2.5 to 4 feet
   
3. Social Distance - close phase is at 4 to 7 feet, far phase is from 7 to 12 feet
   
4. Public Distance - close phase is 12 to 25 feet, far phase is 25 feet or more

If we'd look at the distances, we can say that:

1. Intimate Distance - for people with good relations, possibly romantic because this is the most common distance for embracing, touching or whispering
2. Personal Distance - distance for good friends
3. Social Distance - for acquaintances
4. Public Distance - usually used for public speaking

Now, Proxemics vary with one's culture. A personal distance for one can already be an intimate distance to another.

So, if you happen to find yourself in the company of someone who drives you away to be at least 2-3 feet far from them, try not to be angry at them. For all we know, we're just making them uncomfortable with the short distance. You wouldn't want them to think you're intrusive, right?

As for me, you might make the distance a bit bigger. I become uneasy whenever someone's within my personal bubble.


source: http://www.absoluteastronomy.com/topics/Proxemics#encyclopedia

Ho-Hum 3

I can't find the right words to express my thoughts.
I'm preoccupied with a lot of ideas.
I've planned to sort them out today.
Guess what?

My baby sister's been bugging me with a lot of her childish drawings.
More like scribbles and stick figures of her playmates.

Hayst... :(

My Cravings

Last week was a busy one for me. As such, I turned to food for comfort. :)

Monday, I started by craving for garlic bread... I don't know why but I kinda missed the smell and taste of garlic in my mouth.

Last Tuesday, my mom bought muffins... Though I was not that hungry that time, I ate 3. I even asked for muffins the next day.. :D

Come Wednesday, I was indulging myself with buko juice... Grated coconut meat with it's juice and water plus milk... Yummy! *lol*

Thursday night, I asked my sister for some bread and Chicken sandwich.. And then Coke (Coca-cola, not cocaine)... I had 2 big servings of Chicken sandwich and 500ml Coke. *he he*

Come Friday, I was craving for Calamares... but since it's Friday, I was told not to have any meat (even though it's not the Lenten season!)... I replaced the craving for calamares with 2 bags of chips and a whole tub of dip...

Saturday, I had kwek-kwek - hard-boiled quail eggs coated in flour and then Iced Tea. The next day, my mom asked her aunt to cook biko for us... Apparently, my youngest sister was craving for one. :)

Today, I finally fulfilled another craving... I've had Calamares and kwek-kwek... And then black gulaman. *yum.. yum..*

I felt relieved and happy... My cravings always make me feel so good... I think this is one of the reason why I'm gaining a lot of weight - uncontrollable cravings for unhealthy food.

Right now, I'm actually craving for a whole platter of lasagna... I wonder who can buy one for me? *lol*

Life Outside Maersk

This post is in response to Mish's message in my cbox...

This week is the start of my official non-working week. My resignation was effective July 15 but I had to go back to finish my clearance...

Initially, I planned to go on vacation this week. But last Saturday, I had a changed of heart. Actually, I have been changing some of my plans and recently acted impulsively.

This week, I'm busy with my class. The last day of training will be on August 21 and graduation will be on August 25. I'm enjoying the training especially now that we're mixing spirits, etc.

As of now, I still don't have any idea where to work or whether I want to be in an office again. All I know for now is that I'm happily threading this new path. I am enjoying myself. :)

Oh, I miss my friends at Maersk... Anyway, I'll see them when it's time.. :)

My Guardian Angel...

Ariel

Ariel means "lion of God" and is often associated with lions. When Ariel is near you, you may begin seeing references to or visions of lions around you. Ariel is also associated with the wind. Ariel works closely in conducting manifestation, spirit releasement and Divine magic. Ariel also oversees the sprites, the nature Angels associated with water. Ariel is involved with healing and protecting nature, including animals, fish and birds. If you find an injured bird or other wild animal that needs healing, call upon Ariel for help. Ariel also works closely with Raphael to heal animals in need. Archangel Ariel is known as the Angel of Healing and New Beginnings. Ariel shows you how to feel and see the energy of life. Makes you more sensitive for unseen, nature spirists, elves, laws of nature. He brings to you the message that you have to learn to let things go when they are not working good for you anymore. Destruction of things that are toxic and overwhelmig for you. End is a natural thing, every end is a new beginning. Nothing new cannot start without letting the old go. Its The Wind of Change.

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He's the result when I took one quiz... Well, I kinda thought my guardian angel was Uriel... :D