i'm leaving..

i'm leaving my fantasy behind. i'm gonna move on. he's my true fantasy. the last of my knights. it's hard to even think about it. but this bottle of liquor would help. it would rob off my feelings for him. for mikail.

i'm not hoping that things would be better after this. it won't. he's a big part of me. he's worth more than those ex-bfs i've had. mikail's one of the few special people i've known. he's one of the few sweetest people i've been with.

i'm leaving it all. not because it's over. it's because no matter how hard i'd pray, it wouldn't even start. he came just to teach me. he isn't there to stay with me. this is the only sane thought i could come up right now. leave while i still can because...

if i'd stay, i'd loose my sanity... i'd be empty.